I hate

how you don't even talk to me anymore.
how you think a smile and a hug makes it better.
how you don't tell me ANYTHING.
how I'm just another girl to you, now.

how you think that I'm dumber than you.
how you don't even consider me your friend anymore, even though, like always, I'll be the only one who'll take you back.
how you think you're God's gift to Earth.
how you justify every little thing that you do when it's not necessary in the least.
how you expect me to support you in your decisions.
how I'm just another girl to you, now.

how you're so far away.
how I don't trust you.
how I talk about you to other people.
how when you're with me, everything disappears.
how emotionally unattached I am to you.
how much you love me, when I don't deserve it.
how I'm NOT just another girl to you, now.

It's been far too long.

And for this I am dearly sorry.
I promise to be more diligent about this.

An update on life?
Well, there's much to say, and much of it is nonsensical. Really, the majority of what I say is nonsense.
I have a beau. No, not Beau Bokan (I wish), but he's pretty special. Yes, I was hesitant to say yes when he asked me out, but it's turned out to be the best decision of the year I've made (so far). He's so different from every other male specimen I've met, it makes me question myself as a result of what I was once attracted to.
Family is crumbling apart. There's no real reason to try and salvage the scraps anymore. Someone always gets left out, namely me, and even better, I get the most pressure put on me. Awesome. Not.
My widdle bitty sissy is coming back to school with me! I'm more than excited for that. (:

And really?
Nothing. Nothing left to say in my whirlpool of a brain.
It's all been whisked away by the tide.